Its always so nice to receive a long-distance call from an old friend. I love to hear a familiar voice when I'm halfway working through my work, never expecting the call at all.
Thanks Terrence, for making that call. I enjoyed it very much. :)
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I'm probably gonna drop back to defence in floorball from like, today? Was playing in Line 3 with the juniors as a defender. Frankly speaking, there hasn't been what I'd call a "GREAT!" training session one month after the KL trip.
"XP, are you very stressed during training?"
Am I? I don't know. I'm very frustrated with myself for trying to put in the effort yet nothing seems to be showing. Its like how I dedicate 45 minutes worth of shooting, only to achieve the same standard as someone who has just done 10 minutes of shooting practice.
That kinda thing.
I'm ranting.
It has happened yet again, or so it seems to be. Move someone into my original place, displace me. To another place. To please one, to make me accomodate and adapt.
Hey. I have feelings too. But I probably respect you for that decision because I assume its for my own good. But is every person's decision to move me (like a chess piece) for my own good? Question them, will you?
Displaced. Once again.
That chess piece. Maybe just a pawn.
"So long you keep trying, you'll keep improving. You've got to be patient. Everybody goes through a learning process..."
Yeah and so long I keep practising I'll improve. Right. I've heard that countless, endless times. How easy do you think that can be? Easy peasy for those who are naturally better with that damn stick.
Not to mention that I'm battling with emotions within me now. Expect me to overcome them? Tear my heart and mind out first.
6 years ago, the same displacement denied me of pursuing a second instrument of my choice.
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I hate IT companies and their inefficiency and their arrogance.
Fucked up, irresponsible employees who do not give a hoot about student organizations.
Won't they just pick up the damn phone? I swear I'll call until I make them orgasm from the constant vibration in their pants. By that time I bet they'd have died from testical cancer.
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"Arms to hold and comfort me; a place, where I can hide away my tears, all my fears fade away without a trace..."
Thanks for that hug. I really needed it.
Thanks Terrence, for making that call. I enjoyed it very much. :)
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I'm probably gonna drop back to defence in floorball from like, today? Was playing in Line 3 with the juniors as a defender. Frankly speaking, there hasn't been what I'd call a "GREAT!" training session one month after the KL trip.
"XP, are you very stressed during training?"
Am I? I don't know. I'm very frustrated with myself for trying to put in the effort yet nothing seems to be showing. Its like how I dedicate 45 minutes worth of shooting, only to achieve the same standard as someone who has just done 10 minutes of shooting practice.
That kinda thing.
I'm ranting.
It has happened yet again, or so it seems to be. Move someone into my original place, displace me. To another place. To please one, to make me accomodate and adapt.
Hey. I have feelings too. But I probably respect you for that decision because I assume its for my own good. But is every person's decision to move me (like a chess piece) for my own good? Question them, will you?
Displaced. Once again.
That chess piece. Maybe just a pawn.
"So long you keep trying, you'll keep improving. You've got to be patient. Everybody goes through a learning process..."
Yeah and so long I keep practising I'll improve. Right. I've heard that countless, endless times. How easy do you think that can be? Easy peasy for those who are naturally better with that damn stick.
Not to mention that I'm battling with emotions within me now. Expect me to overcome them? Tear my heart and mind out first.
6 years ago, the same displacement denied me of pursuing a second instrument of my choice.
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I hate IT companies and their inefficiency and their arrogance.
Fucked up, irresponsible employees who do not give a hoot about student organizations.
Won't they just pick up the damn phone? I swear I'll call until I make them orgasm from the constant vibration in their pants. By that time I bet they'd have died from testical cancer.
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"Arms to hold and comfort me; a place, where I can hide away my tears, all my fears fade away without a trace..."
Thanks for that hug. I really needed it.