It never rains but pours. How true isn't it?
I've accepted Eusoff in my heart.
Reformatted my laptop to clear away all the spyware problems I've been dealing with.
I thought I had finally gained a little control over my life.
But, I lost another 2 students. "Company retrenchment," they say. 2 students, whom I put my entire heart into teaching, to transform a boy who was previously condemned slow by other teachers, to a boy who could play me a good (I repeat: good) grade 2 exam piece last Sunday. It was just last Sunday I felt deep satisfaction within me. The satisfaction of watching a student improve under your hands. I did it in 1.5 years.
And suddenly, these 1.5 years went down the drain all in one phone call. The ache of earning less money per month, the heartache of not being able to watch my student continue improving under my hands, the disappointment of not being able to tell his parents proudly that he'll be able to pass grade 2 next year..makes me want to crumble and cry. Because it ain't the first time.
Lost one student half a year ago because he couldn't get distinction in his exam. Was it my fault that he panicked in the exam room and couldn't perform as he did in the mock exam? Lost another student due to financial problems on her part.
Piano lessons have now become a luxury. Yet people do not realise how difficult it is to progress in piano. They think it takes at most 2 years to reach to a level of a performer they have heard in a concert a week ago. I took 17 years.
And I wonder how many people will invest in 17 years worth of lessons.
Given the society now? None I believe.
Utterly disappointed.
I've accepted Eusoff in my heart.
Reformatted my laptop to clear away all the spyware problems I've been dealing with.
I thought I had finally gained a little control over my life.
But, I lost another 2 students. "Company retrenchment," they say. 2 students, whom I put my entire heart into teaching, to transform a boy who was previously condemned slow by other teachers, to a boy who could play me a good (I repeat: good) grade 2 exam piece last Sunday. It was just last Sunday I felt deep satisfaction within me. The satisfaction of watching a student improve under your hands. I did it in 1.5 years.
And suddenly, these 1.5 years went down the drain all in one phone call. The ache of earning less money per month, the heartache of not being able to watch my student continue improving under my hands, the disappointment of not being able to tell his parents proudly that he'll be able to pass grade 2 next year..makes me want to crumble and cry. Because it ain't the first time.
Lost one student half a year ago because he couldn't get distinction in his exam. Was it my fault that he panicked in the exam room and couldn't perform as he did in the mock exam? Lost another student due to financial problems on her part.
Piano lessons have now become a luxury. Yet people do not realise how difficult it is to progress in piano. They think it takes at most 2 years to reach to a level of a performer they have heard in a concert a week ago. I took 17 years.
And I wonder how many people will invest in 17 years worth of lessons.
Given the society now? None I believe.
Utterly disappointed.