I haven't really properly blogged for ages. I haven't had the time to really read what went on in my friends' lives for ages as well. Why can't I have 48 hours per day? But I suppose if I do have 48 hours per day, I'll cramp it up with even more stuff within these 48 hours.
Its a busy period again after the term break. 2 reports due, 2 tests coming up, 1 open book quiz coming up. I'm not a mugger, I'm just putting in more effort than other people because I don't have the ability to grasp concepts as fast as others do. Call me slow, but I'm trying my very best. Its getting tiring. Frankly speaking, I've never felt so pathetic until now...where I feel I'm up against all the better brains out there. Suddenly, there seems to be nothing left for me to take comfort in knowing that I'm better at some things than others are. How does one explain that feeling? The feeling of helplessness.
I'm just lamenting (as usual) la. *sulks*
Have I chewed off more than I could swallow? Juggling school work, sports club and floorball, work and relationships.
Feeling of frustration creeps in everytime I succumb to the sleep factor. Everytime I sleep longer than I intended to, everytime I take a nap in the afternoon/night and end up not doing work, I deem it as wasting precious time. *sigh* I ought to stop putting so much pressure on myself, and not deny myself of these little luxuries.
"Girl, have you forgotten what is it like to relax and enjoy yourself?"
I just want the best for a special someone, yet I can't seem to even provide that.
Time to pay my monthly bills. I'm getting poorer by the month!
Its a busy period again after the term break. 2 reports due, 2 tests coming up, 1 open book quiz coming up. I'm not a mugger, I'm just putting in more effort than other people because I don't have the ability to grasp concepts as fast as others do. Call me slow, but I'm trying my very best. Its getting tiring. Frankly speaking, I've never felt so pathetic until now...where I feel I'm up against all the better brains out there. Suddenly, there seems to be nothing left for me to take comfort in knowing that I'm better at some things than others are. How does one explain that feeling? The feeling of helplessness.
I'm just lamenting (as usual) la. *sulks*
Have I chewed off more than I could swallow? Juggling school work, sports club and floorball, work and relationships.
Feeling of frustration creeps in everytime I succumb to the sleep factor. Everytime I sleep longer than I intended to, everytime I take a nap in the afternoon/night and end up not doing work, I deem it as wasting precious time. *sigh* I ought to stop putting so much pressure on myself, and not deny myself of these little luxuries.
"Girl, have you forgotten what is it like to relax and enjoy yourself?"
I just want the best for a special someone, yet I can't seem to even provide that.
Time to pay my monthly bills. I'm getting poorer by the month!