Many thoughts were running through my head when I went for a jog just now.
This routine of mine has become the time where I de-stress from work, and to straighten out my thoughts before I head home for the day. Today, it was plainly one thing - he's heading into NS tomorrow. Why do I see it as the end of everything instead of a fresh start into the next phase of my life? I have been trying to hold on to those precious few days I have left with a "free" him, but why didn't I look at the larger picture and see it as an opportunity to have the best of both worlds - to enjoy the company of him as well as my friends? Silly me.
Being an only child is lonely. I do not wish to experience loneliness again.
Sad? Not really. I don't know how to put it, but I'll miss having a person there for me to whine to whenever I need a really patient listener. The thought of it makes my lower lip tremble.
Ming dear, thanks for listening to me for that short while, and for what you said. *hugs*
And Happy [19th] Birthday XH! :)
Of course, rubbing my hand over a botak head felt damn shiok. Its like sitting on those kinda carpet grass you know? *grin* Its hard not to start thinking. Been having really weird dreams these days, its like...they reflect what I really felt about the world around me, my deepest emotion...and its rather disturbing. I'm thinking far too much. I better stop.
And take good care of yourself in there. See you again.
This routine of mine has become the time where I de-stress from work, and to straighten out my thoughts before I head home for the day. Today, it was plainly one thing - he's heading into NS tomorrow. Why do I see it as the end of everything instead of a fresh start into the next phase of my life? I have been trying to hold on to those precious few days I have left with a "free" him, but why didn't I look at the larger picture and see it as an opportunity to have the best of both worlds - to enjoy the company of him as well as my friends? Silly me.
Being an only child is lonely. I do not wish to experience loneliness again.
Sad? Not really. I don't know how to put it, but I'll miss having a person there for me to whine to whenever I need a really patient listener. The thought of it makes my lower lip tremble.
Ming dear, thanks for listening to me for that short while, and for what you said. *hugs*
And Happy [19th] Birthday XH! :)
Of course, rubbing my hand over a botak head felt damn shiok. Its like sitting on those kinda carpet grass you know? *grin* Its hard not to start thinking. Been having really weird dreams these days, its like...they reflect what I really felt about the world around me, my deepest emotion...and its rather disturbing. I'm thinking far too much. I better stop.
And take good care of yourself in there. See you again.