I don't want to panic. I really don't want to panic. But I simply couldn't help it today. I don't understand how come I can be so easily pushed over by peer pressure, was more confident in the case study of Brazil but I chose to do a case study on Italy instead, something I read through only this morning. *sigh* Suffered from a mental block during this pathetic essay as well, I wonder when I am ever going to pass my Human Geog essay. I realised all these 1 and a half years has been a bluff, with me acing my Physical Geog to make up for my lousy grades in Human Geography. A bluff.
I hate seeing myself so weak now as well. Though most people will probably hate PE and everything, I somehow don't feel the satisfaction I often get during trainings when I push myself to the limit. Slide all the way down to hit the bottom with a huge thump is the state of my mental strength now. I miss trainings, I miss the mental strength trainings everytime I play a bad bowling game. Its like, losing control of yourself, because you now think: I can't do it anymore.
Oh well. Its just the prelims. I have to make a break through. Prove myself, to the whole world. To my sneering relatives who never have faith in me.
Feeling :
nua. to put it in english, its...i-don't-wish-to-move-tired.
I hate seeing myself so weak now as well. Though most people will probably hate PE and everything, I somehow don't feel the satisfaction I often get during trainings when I push myself to the limit. Slide all the way down to hit the bottom with a huge thump is the state of my mental strength now. I miss trainings, I miss the mental strength trainings everytime I play a bad bowling game. Its like, losing control of yourself, because you now think: I can't do it anymore.
Oh well. Its just the prelims. I have to make a break through. Prove myself, to the whole world. To my sneering relatives who never have faith in me.
Feeling :
nua. to put it in english, its...i-don't-wish-to-move-tired.