I've done it again. Loaded myself up on jobs, obligations and commitments that I hardly have time for myself.
Working with a new company brought about added responsibilities and the pressure to perform up to expectations. It isn't anymore just "rara"-ing the kids, its executing the whole camp to near perfection, plenty of damage control and being a role model.
Somehow, after today's NCC Leadership at Northbrooks, I think I've rusted pretty badly. I ain't that enthusiastic and crazy anymore; I've toned down alot...almost to the point of being boring.Poor boys, I bet they wished they had got another instructor, though I told them straight that they've got what it takes - because I think they're really brilliant and they will go far with their attitude, with a little polishing of course.
Will be seeing them for the next 2 days, I hope I've got more to offer to them instead of a lousy debrief.
Met the kids from West Grove Primary today...they were the cutest ever I've encountered; curious, chatty, funny...so typical of children their age. I was really quite appalled at my lack of energy to entertain the students, for I discovered I was happier doing admin and chatting personally with some students rather than standing there being a clown for the whole school. Seems like I have lots more to work on. Whatever happened to the crazy XP 2 years back?
In a more positive light, I've grown up. Sure doesn't seem to help for my job now, does it? Perhaps in another new aspect - which will probably benefit me in my new job scope instead of just being an instructor.
Another 3 weeks more of mad schedule before a one week break. Let's hope I survive it.
Working with a new company brought about added responsibilities and the pressure to perform up to expectations. It isn't anymore just "rara"-ing the kids, its executing the whole camp to near perfection, plenty of damage control and being a role model.
Somehow, after today's NCC Leadership at Northbrooks, I think I've rusted pretty badly. I ain't that enthusiastic and crazy anymore; I've toned down alot...almost to the point of being boring.Poor boys, I bet they wished they had got another instructor, though I told them straight that they've got what it takes - because I think they're really brilliant and they will go far with their attitude, with a little polishing of course.
Will be seeing them for the next 2 days, I hope I've got more to offer to them instead of a lousy debrief.
Met the kids from West Grove Primary today...they were the cutest ever I've encountered; curious, chatty, funny...so typical of children their age. I was really quite appalled at my lack of energy to entertain the students, for I discovered I was happier doing admin and chatting personally with some students rather than standing there being a clown for the whole school. Seems like I have lots more to work on. Whatever happened to the crazy XP 2 years back?
In a more positive light, I've grown up. Sure doesn't seem to help for my job now, does it? Perhaps in another new aspect - which will probably benefit me in my new job scope instead of just being an instructor.
Another 3 weeks more of mad schedule before a one week break. Let's hope I survive it.