I am sick of studying. Sometimes I wonder why I study so hard for, why I started studying like some nut back in Yr One leaving behind no memories that I have enjoyed myself last year? Year two. And I have started slacking. I wonder why I started so early, only to deprive myself of the fun I supposedly deserve after I scored pretty well considering my secondary school results? I wonder why I could push myself last year, but not this year?
I'm in the "I-want-to-buy-a-bikini-but-I'm-fat-but-don't-want-to-exercise" mode now. Sigh. I want the black bikini. But probably can't pull it off. Coz I'm fat. Even though other people tell me I look okay, but. well. When you wear a bikini you see everything that cannot be seen when you're wearing clothes. That's what I am now. Fat.
No motivation to exercise. Lost interest in food that's probably why I still slim down a little even though I haven't been exercising as much as I used to. aarrrgggghhhh!!! Maybe I should consider fat burners coupled with exercise. I think I'm asking too much. But looking at those people modelling the bikinis makes me wanna puke. Looking at those skinny girls that eat alot but remain slim makes me mad. Because. They don't know how lucky they are. Except maybe they are fragile, and I am not. The absolute last straw : --- agrees that I do need to exercise. For a better and toned body. For fuck's sake. Go get another good-bod-girl. I'll just sit and cry in a corner.
Mood :
fat.
I'm in the "I-want-to-buy-a-bikini-but-I'm-fat-but-don't-want-to-exercise" mode now. Sigh. I want the black bikini. But probably can't pull it off. Coz I'm fat. Even though other people tell me I look okay, but. well. When you wear a bikini you see everything that cannot be seen when you're wearing clothes. That's what I am now. Fat.
No motivation to exercise. Lost interest in food that's probably why I still slim down a little even though I haven't been exercising as much as I used to. aarrrgggghhhh!!! Maybe I should consider fat burners coupled with exercise. I think I'm asking too much. But looking at those people modelling the bikinis makes me wanna puke. Looking at those skinny girls that eat alot but remain slim makes me mad. Because. They don't know how lucky they are. Except maybe they are fragile, and I am not. The absolute last straw : --- agrees that I do need to exercise. For a better and toned body. For fuck's sake. Go get another good-bod-girl. I'll just sit and cry in a corner.
Mood :
fat.