Lasagne disaster!!! I can't believe I f.o.r.g.o.t that cheese melts. Instead of the nice cubodial shape my lasagne was supposed to have. Its now, erm. a mush. Nevertheless, still nice to eat, but horrible to look at. Thought : baby food?
Maths was a disaster. Haha, passable I guess, but still disastrous. Tomorrow's literature will probably be just as bad. *sigh* But. Wednesday is COMING!
Ooooh yes. And I got the knack of it. Finally. *heaves sigh of relief and shouts a silent "HURRAH!"*
Sunday, June 29, 2003Maths was a disaster. Haha, passable I guess, but still disastrous. Tomorrow's literature will probably be just as bad. *sigh* But. Wednesday is COMING!
Ooooh yes. And I got the knack of it. Finally. *heaves sigh of relief and shouts a silent "HURRAH!"*
Oh my JCT plan..so many not completed. And tests are tomorrow! *whines*
I want to give up on myself.
Bah.
Bah.
To Pasir Ris to borrow Kor's bike. Thank you so much kor! *hugs*
Still trying to work this darn snapfish.com photo album. Somehow, I can't get it to be viewed for public. I need help.
HELP.
Friday, June 27, 2003Still trying to work this darn snapfish.com photo album. Somehow, I can't get it to be viewed for public. I need help.
HELP.
One paper down.
Lazy bum was so lazy today. I had to go over just to have lunch with him. Okay, that was rather duh. Haha. Kinda surprised, didn't blog for a day and Blogger changed its layout. I am surprised. I miss lazy bum. Had a great two days with you. Love spending time with you like that. Looked so good today, I could just fall in love with you all over again. :)
Self-Tanning. Don't know whether I should try it. Or maybe I should just opt for getting burnt and brown under the sun next Friday. Oooh lala. I can't wait. So many things to buy.
1) Vertically striped pattern tote/shoulder-hung bag.
2) Black bikini.
3) Square bangle.
4) Sun-tan lotion. (or maybe I should borrow from Ying)
Hoho.
flip flop till you drop!
ooooooh laaa laaa. She's so pretty.
Mood :
pleased.
Wednesday, June 25, 2003Lazy bum was so lazy today. I had to go over just to have lunch with him. Okay, that was rather duh. Haha. Kinda surprised, didn't blog for a day and Blogger changed its layout. I am surprised. I miss lazy bum. Had a great two days with you. Love spending time with you like that. Looked so good today, I could just fall in love with you all over again. :)
Self-Tanning. Don't know whether I should try it. Or maybe I should just opt for getting burnt and brown under the sun next Friday. Oooh lala. I can't wait. So many things to buy.
1) Vertically striped pattern tote/shoulder-hung bag.
2) Black bikini.
3) Square bangle.
4) Sun-tan lotion. (or maybe I should borrow from Ying)
Hoho.
flip flop till you drop!
ooooooh laaa laaa. She's so pretty.
Mood :
pleased.
In my life, you heard me say I love you
How do I show you its time?
Hear my heart, it longs for more of you
I've fallen deeply in love with you.
You have stolen my heart
I'm captivated by you
Never will you and I part
I've fallen deeply in love with you.
You and I together forever
NOthing can stand in our way
My love for you grows stronger each new day
I've fallen deeply in love with you.
Tuesday, June 24, 2003How do I show you its time?
Hear my heart, it longs for more of you
I've fallen deeply in love with you.
You have stolen my heart
I'm captivated by you
Never will you and I part
I've fallen deeply in love with you.
You and I together forever
NOthing can stand in our way
My love for you grows stronger each new day
I've fallen deeply in love with you.
*gets all dreamy again*
sigh. :)
An average of 5 hours sleep for the past few days. And not that I've covered alot of work. I wonder why I have been doing that. I think July Common Tests are out to kill us all. Screw the JC system. 7.50am to 5.30pm on school days aren't enough for us I guess. They have to make us work through the holidays as well. Where is their sense of fun? Don't have any I guess.
Mood :
sleepy.
Monday, June 23, 2003Mood :
sleepy.
Lovely. Or so, I like it.
Nicole, thanks so much for that blog entry. omg. I feel better!
Was at the Mango sale today. I think my aunt shares much more enthusiasm of diving into piles of clothes with me rather than my mum. But. I didn't buy anything. Why? Because Mango did. not. import big sizes. Or whatever was left of the big sizes were gone. Saw this skirt that I really liked. But it was a size 6. Like hello. How can I fit into a size 6 when I wear a size 10. sigh. But oh well. Just as well. I save money for my bikini.
Mood :
geeky.
Saturday, June 21, 2003Was at the Mango sale today. I think my aunt shares much more enthusiasm of diving into piles of clothes with me rather than my mum. But. I didn't buy anything. Why? Because Mango did. not. import big sizes. Or whatever was left of the big sizes were gone. Saw this skirt that I really liked. But it was a size 6. Like hello. How can I fit into a size 6 when I wear a size 10. sigh. But oh well. Just as well. I save money for my bikini.
Mood :
geeky.
I am sick of studying. Sometimes I wonder why I study so hard for, why I started studying like some nut back in Yr One leaving behind no memories that I have enjoyed myself last year? Year two. And I have started slacking. I wonder why I started so early, only to deprive myself of the fun I supposedly deserve after I scored pretty well considering my secondary school results? I wonder why I could push myself last year, but not this year?
I'm in the "I-want-to-buy-a-bikini-but-I'm-fat-but-don't-want-to-exercise" mode now. Sigh. I want the black bikini. But probably can't pull it off. Coz I'm fat. Even though other people tell me I look okay, but. well. When you wear a bikini you see everything that cannot be seen when you're wearing clothes. That's what I am now. Fat.
No motivation to exercise. Lost interest in food that's probably why I still slim down a little even though I haven't been exercising as much as I used to. aarrrgggghhhh!!! Maybe I should consider fat burners coupled with exercise. I think I'm asking too much. But looking at those people modelling the bikinis makes me wanna puke. Looking at those skinny girls that eat alot but remain slim makes me mad. Because. They don't know how lucky they are. Except maybe they are fragile, and I am not. The absolute last straw : --- agrees that I do need to exercise. For a better and toned body. For fuck's sake. Go get another good-bod-girl. I'll just sit and cry in a corner.
Mood :
fat.
Friday, June 20, 2003I'm in the "I-want-to-buy-a-bikini-but-I'm-fat-but-don't-want-to-exercise" mode now. Sigh. I want the black bikini. But probably can't pull it off. Coz I'm fat. Even though other people tell me I look okay, but. well. When you wear a bikini you see everything that cannot be seen when you're wearing clothes. That's what I am now. Fat.
No motivation to exercise. Lost interest in food that's probably why I still slim down a little even though I haven't been exercising as much as I used to. aarrrgggghhhh!!! Maybe I should consider fat burners coupled with exercise. I think I'm asking too much. But looking at those people modelling the bikinis makes me wanna puke. Looking at those skinny girls that eat alot but remain slim makes me mad. Because. They don't know how lucky they are. Except maybe they are fragile, and I am not. The absolute last straw : --- agrees that I do need to exercise. For a better and toned body. For fuck's sake. Go get another good-bod-girl. I'll just sit and cry in a corner.
Mood :
fat.
Is the glass half full or half empty?
Mmm. I am optimistic. That's good.
And now for another one.
Are You Naughty or Nice?
Haaa. *bored*
Slept kinda late again. But I managed to finish half of Urban chapter yesterday. So today shall finish all!
Got woken up in the morning by the lousy alarm, stupid me to think that I'll be able to survive with merely 6 hours of sleep, in the end I just switched off the alarm and went back to sleep, only to be woken up by XH at 9.30am again. *groans*
Spent some time with him, then went home to continue studying. Progress was slow, neighbour came over for a while. I found a pretty nice place to sit in the afternoons now, its at this dining table in my living room. Peaceful. Ahhh. *smiles*
Discovered something called the Presto! Image Folio for photo editing. Haaaahaaa. Spent some time making stupid wallpapers. Yes. Those who have seen it, go ahead and laugh, I won't stop you. I'm so amazed even at myself. Hah!
Back to the books.
Current Mood :
good.
Thursday, June 19, 2003Got woken up in the morning by the lousy alarm, stupid me to think that I'll be able to survive with merely 6 hours of sleep, in the end I just switched off the alarm and went back to sleep, only to be woken up by XH at 9.30am again. *groans*
Spent some time with him, then went home to continue studying. Progress was slow, neighbour came over for a while. I found a pretty nice place to sit in the afternoons now, its at this dining table in my living room. Peaceful. Ahhh. *smiles*
Discovered something called the Presto! Image Folio for photo editing. Haaaahaaa. Spent some time making stupid wallpapers. Yes. Those who have seen it, go ahead and laugh, I won't stop you. I'm so amazed even at myself. Hah!
Back to the books.
Current Mood :
good.
Wednesday, June 18, 2003
"Dear diary, I pierced my ears today."
Oh boy oh boy oh boy!! Danglies here I comeeeee! Of course I can't attack the dangly earings I alwaysss wanted yet, so I guess I'll just have to wait for a few more weeks. *sniffs*
Collected my new spectacles as well. I look..fine in them. Ate over at some little coffeeshop at Tampines with Suzanne today, they sell really nice chicken rice and roasted duck. A pity we didn't get to eat both the chicken and the duck so we settled for the duck instead. So very nice!!!
Went back home, tried to do a little maths, went as far as two Discreet Random Variable questions and I fell asleep. Bah. Day wasted again. So here I am now. My table is horrendously messy, its time to do some cleaning up after the common tests. I feel so deprived of the holidays. No proper play without worrying about studies. Feeling empty again, miss the bowling team. *sigh*
Current Mood :
sleepy.
Tuesday, June 17, 2003Oh boy oh boy oh boy!! Danglies here I comeeeee! Of course I can't attack the dangly earings I alwaysss wanted yet, so I guess I'll just have to wait for a few more weeks. *sniffs*
Collected my new spectacles as well. I look..fine in them. Ate over at some little coffeeshop at Tampines with Suzanne today, they sell really nice chicken rice and roasted duck. A pity we didn't get to eat both the chicken and the duck so we settled for the duck instead. So very nice!!!
Went back home, tried to do a little maths, went as far as two Discreet Random Variable questions and I fell asleep. Bah. Day wasted again. So here I am now. My table is horrendously messy, its time to do some cleaning up after the common tests. I feel so deprived of the holidays. No proper play without worrying about studies. Feeling empty again, miss the bowling team. *sigh*
Current Mood :
sleepy.
Hmm. I wonder if the mention of this blog will be passed around again when I mention the name William? *looks around* Thanks for being my friends yeah? Thanks for passing around something that I typed in when I was experiencing a hangover. Thanks for the great reputation when I unfortunately have someone to answer to. Thank YOU ALL ever so very much. I love you guys for that, if you haven't even noticed the sarcasm.
Oh well, but its good that things are cleared up. Thank you for being a good friend.
I hope things will be the same again.
Oh well, but its good that things are cleared up. Thank you for being a good friend.
I hope things will be the same again.
2.45am : Went to bed.
10.40am : Woke up. Wash up, brush teeth.
11.00am : Bummed around, deciding what to study. Settled on Population.
12 nn : Went to NTUC with Ying Hui (neighbour) to find what to cook for lunch.
1pm : Came back. Settled to cooking spaghetti. Chopped up meatballs and sausages.
1.15pm : Heated up seaweed-chicken for appetizer.
1.35pm : Spaghetti finally done. Realised we cooked too little. (here we go, ARGH!) Cooked somemore. Had more chicken-seaweed.
2pm : FINALLY got to eat. Mmmm, yummy yummy, delicious!
2.20pm : Chatted about pathetic Civics Tutors and notorious classes.
2.45pm : Found some stick-men fighting game, found Little Fighter 2. Played.
5.35pm : Hungry? Chips from Yinghui's house. Back to LIttle Fighter.
7.05pm : Bath. then Dinner.
8.33pm : Typing entry. I resolve to finish Population before I sleep.
Thought of the day : If PastaMania hire us to cook, they will throw us out on the same day.
Songs : Everything by Wang Xin Ling.
Current Mood :
fat. (i don't care if i'm flabby you can go get another girl so there.)
Monday, June 16, 200310.40am : Woke up. Wash up, brush teeth.
11.00am : Bummed around, deciding what to study. Settled on Population.
12 nn : Went to NTUC with Ying Hui (neighbour) to find what to cook for lunch.
1pm : Came back. Settled to cooking spaghetti. Chopped up meatballs and sausages.
1.15pm : Heated up seaweed-chicken for appetizer.
1.35pm : Spaghetti finally done. Realised we cooked too little. (here we go, ARGH!) Cooked somemore. Had more chicken-seaweed.
2pm : FINALLY got to eat. Mmmm, yummy yummy, delicious!
2.20pm : Chatted about pathetic Civics Tutors and notorious classes.
2.45pm : Found some stick-men fighting game, found Little Fighter 2. Played.
5.35pm : Hungry? Chips from Yinghui's house. Back to LIttle Fighter.
7.05pm : Bath. then Dinner.
8.33pm : Typing entry. I resolve to finish Population before I sleep.
Thought of the day : If PastaMania hire us to cook, they will throw us out on the same day.
Songs : Everything by Wang Xin Ling.
Current Mood :
fat. (i don't care if i'm flabby you can go get another girl so there.)
Oh Noooooo. I didn't do any work today! *gasps* Downloaded Finding Nemo, and watched it today. Finding Nemo is indeed cute *goes awww*
Though I prefer that Dori fish, she has this real short memory span of about 3 seconds. Sheesh. I feel comforted watching her. Hahaha.
I am so broke, forgot to get my allowance from my mum. She owes me $80 bucksssss. And poor me had to cook lunch for myself today coz' I simply had no money to even buy lunch. *sobs* How pathetic...
Alright. I shall finish up the Desert notes tonight. *grim look* I. CAN. DO. IT.
Current Mood :
Determined.
Sunday, June 15, 2003Though I prefer that Dori fish, she has this real short memory span of about 3 seconds. Sheesh. I feel comforted watching her. Hahaha.
I am so broke, forgot to get my allowance from my mum. She owes me $80 bucksssss. And poor me had to cook lunch for myself today coz' I simply had no money to even buy lunch. *sobs* How pathetic...
Alright. I shall finish up the Desert notes tonight. *grim look* I. CAN. DO. IT.
Current Mood :
Determined.
Stuuupid Kazaa. Downloading the first part of "Finding Nemo" was a success, but finding the second part was a real pain in the ass. Took like a few hrs to download the second part, only to find out that it was "Anger Mangement". *roars* Die you-idiot-who-named-the-file-finding-nemo-when-it-was-actually-anger-management. The irony of it. I am sooo angry, Anger Management will not help.
So, I decided to download again. Bloody connection was so slow. Haha, heck it, left my computer on the whole night, this morning? Taa-daa...the second part is done! I am so proud of myself. *yay*
Everything is finally FINE!!! After a week of blues, yesss. It has gotta be fine fine fine.. *sings M1 song* "I'm walking on sunshine...oooohhh. I'm gonna feel good!"
Cheesy. Reminds me of how a promoter tried to promote my mum this facial product, and my mum just replied "Oh, I don't need that. I have nice and smooth skin already." *strangles herself* That was totallleeeeeee "Haha-I-managed-to-shut-the-promoter-up" attitude...oh my gosh. If I was the promoter I am so gonna strangle her. But good one mum, may your daughter learn from you. *grins*
Got this from Gaius' blog, its real funny. Read it.
Current Mood :
Cheesed.
Saturday, June 14, 2003So, I decided to download again. Bloody connection was so slow. Haha, heck it, left my computer on the whole night, this morning? Taa-daa...the second part is done! I am so proud of myself. *yay*
Everything is finally FINE!!! After a week of blues, yesss. It has gotta be fine fine fine.. *sings M1 song* "I'm walking on sunshine...oooohhh. I'm gonna feel good!"
Cheesy. Reminds me of how a promoter tried to promote my mum this facial product, and my mum just replied "Oh, I don't need that. I have nice and smooth skin already." *strangles herself* That was totallleeeeeee "Haha-I-managed-to-shut-the-promoter-up" attitude...oh my gosh. If I was the promoter I am so gonna strangle her. But good one mum, may your daughter learn from you. *grins*
Got this from Gaius' blog, its real funny. Read it.
Current Mood :
Cheesed.
Hah! Highlight (not so highlight) of my life...I finally made new specs. Not that they are nice as THIS or anything, they are cheapo ($80 only. wahaha) and big and rectangularish and ah-soh-ish. Hilarious!
Recommended : Terra Cafe at Bugis, Parco. The corner where all the restaurants on the ground floor (open-air) are found. Blackish furniture. Nice-hair-color waiter and waitresses. *grins*
food for thought -
Fish & Chips $9.90. The fish never tasted sooooo good and heavenly. Easy to cut crispy outside crust with tender fish meat.
Sirloin Steak. Yummy boiled baby carrots, lovely potato wedges that my mum kept stealing from my plate in exchange for her fries, and of course. the steak. Well-done beef steak $10.90. Not too rubbery, not to squishy, just the right touch. Lovely sauce.
Pumpkin soup. Need I say more? Absolutely creamy.
Coffee, plain. Better than Coffee-Bean I tell you.
The lunch today kinda sums up the meals for the day, coz' I was too full to even devour dinner, 'cept maybe for a bowl of soup. Went into Cold Storage (being the typical auntie who heads into every super-market) and bought myself Sushi to share with Mum. Some promoter recommended me this Lipton Jasmine Green Tea *takes a sip* uggh, so sweet. And I was like "Why so sweet?" The promoter was like "Oh sorry, we're told by the manager to put sugar so that it will be more attractive to people as most of them prefer it sweet." Bah. Turns me off.
Saw a couple of those long chain drop earings and I pointed out to Mum, saying they are so-the-very-nice-don't-you-think-so(?) And YES, she agreed with me, and I was like "These earings are the only reason why I wanna pierce ears" And YES YES YES, she consented to letting me pierce. *bounces with glee* (c'mon, cheer for me Suz and Nic!)
Current Mood :
crazed. a "hee hee hee hee!!!!" one rather.
Friday, June 13, 2003Recommended : Terra Cafe at Bugis, Parco. The corner where all the restaurants on the ground floor (open-air) are found. Blackish furniture. Nice-hair-color waiter and waitresses. *grins*
food for thought -
Fish & Chips $9.90. The fish never tasted sooooo good and heavenly. Easy to cut crispy outside crust with tender fish meat.
Sirloin Steak. Yummy boiled baby carrots, lovely potato wedges that my mum kept stealing from my plate in exchange for her fries, and of course. the steak. Well-done beef steak $10.90. Not too rubbery, not to squishy, just the right touch. Lovely sauce.
Pumpkin soup. Need I say more? Absolutely creamy.
Coffee, plain. Better than Coffee-Bean I tell you.
The lunch today kinda sums up the meals for the day, coz' I was too full to even devour dinner, 'cept maybe for a bowl of soup. Went into Cold Storage (being the typical auntie who heads into every super-market) and bought myself Sushi to share with Mum. Some promoter recommended me this Lipton Jasmine Green Tea *takes a sip* uggh, so sweet. And I was like "Why so sweet?" The promoter was like "Oh sorry, we're told by the manager to put sugar so that it will be more attractive to people as most of them prefer it sweet." Bah. Turns me off.
Saw a couple of those long chain drop earings and I pointed out to Mum, saying they are so-the-very-nice-don't-you-think-so(?) And YES, she agreed with me, and I was like "These earings are the only reason why I wanna pierce ears" And YES YES YES, she consented to letting me pierce. *bounces with glee* (c'mon, cheer for me Suz and Nic!)
Current Mood :
crazed. a "hee hee hee hee!!!!" one rather.
I hope things have cleared up. Finaly decided to tell him what has been bothering me..after soooo longgg!!! *gasps*
Kor passed his driving test. Yay. Must have been the luck I showered on him last night. I love the way my luck works wonders. *beams* A pity it doesn't seem to work for myself though. But nevermind. I'm alright with it. I've been slacking this entire week...oh my gosh. I ought to get some work done! *yells* I ought to I ought to. I hate it when I think that I should be out enjoying myself if I were to just sit around the house and stone my day away. Its amazing how fast time passes everyday, when all I do is to struggle with a few maths questions, sleep, wake up, eat, sleep again. And stone stone stone. Argh! What is happening to me.... *groans*
I. HATE. JC. LIFE. Sucks to the max. I want to slim down.
Current Mood :
grumpy. super-belated-monday-blues.
Thursday, June 12, 2003Kor passed his driving test. Yay. Must have been the luck I showered on him last night. I love the way my luck works wonders. *beams* A pity it doesn't seem to work for myself though. But nevermind. I'm alright with it. I've been slacking this entire week...oh my gosh. I ought to get some work done! *yells* I ought to I ought to. I hate it when I think that I should be out enjoying myself if I were to just sit around the house and stone my day away. Its amazing how fast time passes everyday, when all I do is to struggle with a few maths questions, sleep, wake up, eat, sleep again. And stone stone stone. Argh! What is happening to me.... *groans*
I. HATE. JC. LIFE. Sucks to the max. I want to slim down.
Current Mood :
grumpy. super-belated-monday-blues.
I woke up in the morning, feeling so pissed. Things last night were so bad, the things he said, just kept running through my head, running through my head. Literally. Somehow every single moment in the past just flashed past me, as if I was reviewing a video clip on my life since I could remember. Nothing much of the past, maybe more on since September. It hurts so very much.
Things were pretty awkward today, although we did talk about funny stuff, but somehow the laughter didn't last as long as the usual. Rather forced I must say. Or rather, I was still feeling pretty hurt from what happened, even though its just a small thing. Somehow, I just had to remember the past and pick up on whatever mistakes made even though there seem not to be any link with the present. Maybe I just have to make myself feel better, tell myself its not my fault all the time.
I hate the way I'm brought up, meek and pathetic. Life's like a stage for me. All makeup, false smiles and forced laughter when all I wanted to do is to let loose my cries from deep inside. "Another ditch in the road, keep moving. Another stop sign, keep moving..on..." Am I really what I am in person?
Another passing phase of depression. I hope things get brighter soon. I need to start studying, can't concentrate at all. Next aim : A in geography.
Current Mood :
helpless.
Wednesday, June 11, 2003Things were pretty awkward today, although we did talk about funny stuff, but somehow the laughter didn't last as long as the usual. Rather forced I must say. Or rather, I was still feeling pretty hurt from what happened, even though its just a small thing. Somehow, I just had to remember the past and pick up on whatever mistakes made even though there seem not to be any link with the present. Maybe I just have to make myself feel better, tell myself its not my fault all the time.
I hate the way I'm brought up, meek and pathetic. Life's like a stage for me. All makeup, false smiles and forced laughter when all I wanted to do is to let loose my cries from deep inside. "Another ditch in the road, keep moving. Another stop sign, keep moving..on..." Am I really what I am in person?
Another passing phase of depression. I hope things get brighter soon. I need to start studying, can't concentrate at all. Next aim : A in geography.
Current Mood :
helpless.
And I forgot to add something.
SOMEBODY is gonna ignore SOMEBODY because he knows all about it. He knows all about it. He knows alllll about it, from somebody else. Don't say he didn't try, he tried to be nice, but SOMEBODY just had to do something stupid to drive him away, drive him away. He's willing to be friends, but SOMEBODY isn't. He tried his best, so he's gonna IGNORE YOU. Because, he has tried, and it failed because SOMEBODY did something satisfying to thyself.
SOMEBODY is gonna ignore SOMEBODY because he knows all about it. He knows all about it. He knows alllll about it, from somebody else. Don't say he didn't try, he tried to be nice, but SOMEBODY just had to do something stupid to drive him away, drive him away. He's willing to be friends, but SOMEBODY isn't. He tried his best, so he's gonna IGNORE YOU. Because, he has tried, and it failed because SOMEBODY did something satisfying to thyself.
Went to eat tim sum in the morning. Mmmm!!!!
Came back and tried to do some work, and Ming Zhen came over without a warning. Haha :) Nice to see her after sooooooooo long. Awww. *smiles* The slightly bad part is, I couldn't spend time with XH, so..yeah. Thus leads to crankiness and I dunno why the hell I'm lamenting here. After all, everything's supposedly my fault.
I really wonder whether I did make any effort for him, because I don't seem to be making any effort for him whereas he does almost anything for me. At least, it seems that way. Maybe I shouldn't even make this public. I don't think you'll like it huh. Personal matters brought out into broad daylight, but its night time now. Dream-land for me. Anyway, I had a really good talk with Ming Zhen..about how I've been feeling about everything and so on, turned out that she's experiencing exactly the same thing as me...yeah. Cooked spaghetti for her...maybe I should cook for him as well. Since I didn't put in any effort into the relationship. Bah. This sucks. No wonder I'm such a failure in relationships. Maybe this will be another one. Maybe not. When will I ever learn? How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days. 10 days? Make it realistically, 10 months. Or maybe, give me 3 months. Enough to drive anybody crazy. *sigh*
I don't even know what I'm talking about. Getting drunk is scary. You do things you wouldn't be normally doing. You say things you shouldn't say. Not that I gotten real drunk and did something silly, but the possibility of it...is scary. Maybe this will scare me into not going into pubs. I hope it does.
As each day passes, I feel the urgency to start studying. But I don't get down to proper studying. *sigh* Somebody better save me. Fast. Bring me back to harsh reality. Bring me away from lala-land. Bring me away from the life I'm living now.
Song : Josh Groban - To Where You Are
Current Mood :
down.
Tuesday, June 10, 2003Came back and tried to do some work, and Ming Zhen came over without a warning. Haha :) Nice to see her after sooooooooo long. Awww. *smiles* The slightly bad part is, I couldn't spend time with XH, so..yeah. Thus leads to crankiness and I dunno why the hell I'm lamenting here. After all, everything's supposedly my fault.
I really wonder whether I did make any effort for him, because I don't seem to be making any effort for him whereas he does almost anything for me. At least, it seems that way. Maybe I shouldn't even make this public. I don't think you'll like it huh. Personal matters brought out into broad daylight, but its night time now. Dream-land for me. Anyway, I had a really good talk with Ming Zhen..about how I've been feeling about everything and so on, turned out that she's experiencing exactly the same thing as me...yeah. Cooked spaghetti for her...maybe I should cook for him as well. Since I didn't put in any effort into the relationship. Bah. This sucks. No wonder I'm such a failure in relationships. Maybe this will be another one. Maybe not. When will I ever learn? How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days. 10 days? Make it realistically, 10 months. Or maybe, give me 3 months. Enough to drive anybody crazy. *sigh*
I don't even know what I'm talking about. Getting drunk is scary. You do things you wouldn't be normally doing. You say things you shouldn't say. Not that I gotten real drunk and did something silly, but the possibility of it...is scary. Maybe this will scare me into not going into pubs. I hope it does.
As each day passes, I feel the urgency to start studying. But I don't get down to proper studying. *sigh* Somebody better save me. Fast. Bring me back to harsh reality. Bring me away from lala-land. Bring me away from the life I'm living now.
Song : Josh Groban - To Where You Are
Current Mood :
down.
Just watched "How To Lose A Guy in 10 Days" Oh my gooooshh..the show's so funny and so sweeeet! She's soooo mean and he's soooo nice. Haha..alright. Yeah, most should agree that its very funny..awwwww. *grins*
Today's Geog was soooo pissifying. Miss J made us plot out 4 graphs of temperatures..my gosh. Neck strain, eyes strain after plotting like 10000 dots on pathetic squares. Ahhhh. drove everyone crazy. Even Huiyu. *yells with laughter*
Considered piercing my ears. Wondering how I'll look with those long dangly chain type earings...Suzanne's getting her's pierced, but too bad the store we went to didn't have alcohol available, next week then. *grits teeth* I'll probably pierce by then. Good luck to me. *mutters*
Dinner.
Current Mood :
happy!
Sunday, June 08, 2003Today's Geog was soooo pissifying. Miss J made us plot out 4 graphs of temperatures..my gosh. Neck strain, eyes strain after plotting like 10000 dots on pathetic squares. Ahhhh. drove everyone crazy. Even Huiyu. *yells with laughter*
Considered piercing my ears. Wondering how I'll look with those long dangly chain type earings...Suzanne's getting her's pierced, but too bad the store we went to didn't have alcohol available, next week then. *grits teeth* I'll probably pierce by then. Good luck to me. *mutters*
Dinner.
Current Mood :
happy!
Figured out how to retrieve my lost archives. Yay. Entries were rather screwed up though. I shall switch it to weekly instead of monthly archives. Otherwise you readers will have a hell lot to read. If you ever do read in the first place. 
Bak Kut Teh for dinner, oh yeah. After craving it for a week, mummy finally got down to brewing bak kut teh soup. *happiness*
I need to slim down. AAAGGGHGHHGHGHHHHH!!!! Its so frustrating seeing people around me wear nice clothes and I know I won't be able to carry it off as well as them because I don't have the bod. As simple as that. No matter how toned my legs, my arms are. I think my waist is probably like some tree trunk. *roars*
Rargh!
Current Mood :
exasperated.
Bak Kut Teh for dinner, oh yeah. After craving it for a week, mummy finally got down to brewing bak kut teh soup. *happiness*
I need to slim down. AAAGGGHGHHGHGHHHHH!!!! Its so frustrating seeing people around me wear nice clothes and I know I won't be able to carry it off as well as them because I don't have the bod. As simple as that. No matter how toned my legs, my arms are. I think my waist is probably like some tree trunk. *roars*
Rargh!
Current Mood :
exasperated.
Just came back from the band concert. TJ band never sounded so good before, they have improved so much. Performance was just great. The stage band and skit gets lamer every year. Haha, but its soooo funny. Sigh. Why does Oo have to look so good every time he dresses properly for a concert? I'm so tempted to tell him that he ought to dress like this more often rather than tee-shirt and bermudas all the time. In fact I think all guys should bother to take pride in their dressing, then they will really look good. Trust me guys. It makes a big difference. If only you knew....anyway, back to my point. He's seriously appealing when he dresses up in shirt, pants and tie. AHHHH. *grins* Why am I thinking about that? *laughs hysterically*
Ahhh. Forgot to get William something. Oh well, nevermind. He has enough flowers to decorate his bedroom I bet.
Feel weird with Jon. I don't know how I made him my eye-candy in the first place. Sheesh. Whatever was I thinking about? *yells*
Oh well. Sigh. Now I have to go through a series of ups and downs, thinking about the lovely memories I have had from all the past band concerts. Something makes me wanna be up the stage there and playing with everybody, contributing to the music. But something is stopping me from picking up that tuba again. Ups and downs, ups and downs.
Current Mood :
up and down.
"You Look Wonderful Tonight"
Saturday, June 07, 2003Ahhh. Forgot to get William something. Oh well, nevermind. He has enough flowers to decorate his bedroom I bet.
Feel weird with Jon. I don't know how I made him my eye-candy in the first place. Sheesh. Whatever was I thinking about? *yells*
Oh well. Sigh. Now I have to go through a series of ups and downs, thinking about the lovely memories I have had from all the past band concerts. Something makes me wanna be up the stage there and playing with everybody, contributing to the music. But something is stopping me from picking up that tuba again. Ups and downs, ups and downs.
Current Mood :
up and down.
"You Look Wonderful Tonight"
One whole night yesterday without the phone line working...pure torture. Can't log on to the net, can't use the phone. Thank God for my handphone and my piano or else I would have just died.
Gonna meet Russell at Tampines soon, to collect the flowers to be passed to someone in the band later. I hope he doesn't buy too big a bouquet or else I'm so gonna look like a love-sick girl whose boyfriend has just given her flowers. Hah! Don't know what to buy for William, but if I buy something for one, I have to buy for all. Which is ratherrrr money-sucking-out-of-my-pockets situation.
Spent yesterday at Bugis shopping around for a shirt, hopefully a vertically striped shirt, but can't seem to find any nice designs, or at least, I found a few nice design, but no sizes. I tell you, Singapore discriminates against those wearing L and above. *roars* Anyway, bought a plain beige shirt from G2000 in the end. Miss Selfrige was having a superb sale, a Buy One Get One Free + a 50% off selected pieces. Most of them are a size 10 and above. OHhhh my gosh...such good buy!!! And my always wanted slacks are there on display! *tempted*
Gotta pass to kor my Loreal Gel. Gotta collect flowers. Gotta meet Jon at City Hall for dinner. Gotta meet Kenneth at Paya Lebar to go band concert together.
And. I have to study Chinese. Do my Lit Essay. Do another Lit Essay. Practise piano.
Current Mood :
Silly.
Wednesday, June 04, 2003Gonna meet Russell at Tampines soon, to collect the flowers to be passed to someone in the band later. I hope he doesn't buy too big a bouquet or else I'm so gonna look like a love-sick girl whose boyfriend has just given her flowers. Hah! Don't know what to buy for William, but if I buy something for one, I have to buy for all. Which is ratherrrr money-sucking-out-of-my-pockets situation.
Spent yesterday at Bugis shopping around for a shirt, hopefully a vertically striped shirt, but can't seem to find any nice designs, or at least, I found a few nice design, but no sizes. I tell you, Singapore discriminates against those wearing L and above. *roars* Anyway, bought a plain beige shirt from G2000 in the end. Miss Selfrige was having a superb sale, a Buy One Get One Free + a 50% off selected pieces. Most of them are a size 10 and above. OHhhh my gosh...such good buy!!! And my always wanted slacks are there on display! *tempted*
Gotta pass to kor my Loreal Gel. Gotta collect flowers. Gotta meet Jon at City Hall for dinner. Gotta meet Kenneth at Paya Lebar to go band concert together.
And. I have to study Chinese. Do my Lit Essay. Do another Lit Essay. Practise piano.
Current Mood :
Silly.
Oh, and saw Orange Milkshake playing bball when I left the school this afternoon. He looks better in a basketball jersey than the TJ school uniform. Haha. He looks better drenched with perspiration. Ooooo. Worth oggling. I still feel bad for drinking his honey-dew milkshake and he had to settle for my orange milkshake. Sigh.
I'm indeed amazed I managed to survive with only 6 hrs sleep everyday since Monday. And to do that continuously without taking a nap in the afternoon. *beams* I'm so proud of myself. Though eye bags are appearing.
Boring day at school again. Headed over to El Cafe for lunch with Bernie initially, but they didn't have Maggi Mee Tom Yam, nor Chicken, nor garlic bread (makes it practically nothing filling to eat. *grumbles*) so had to settle for a measely Mee Goreng. To make matters worse, they are way behind time coz' too many orders. So had to cancel it and head down to the canteen to it. Always running out of stock. Argh.
And the day goes on...
Evaluation for bowling. Vote for new committee. It feels weird, empty somehow. Its like I've stepped up not long ago (November?) and here I am, stepping down again. Pretty fast. And I felt as tho' I haven't contributed anything at all.
Bowling at Silver. I think they did something to the lanes, looks nicer now. I kinda just realised the correct way to release the ball as Jimmy has been trying to drill into my head for quite a long time...it just happens after the competition. Haha, how ironic. But I guess that I only learn my lesson after defeat. *wry smile* Rather sad, but its the learning cycle.
Its almost the first time I have so much passion about something. And it has to be bowling. Of all things. The most expensive ever. Come to think of it, everything that I have a passion for is expensive. Piano, bowling. Previously ice-skating. Sheesh.
Current Mood :
neutral. more to happy side.
Monday, June 02, 2003Boring day at school again. Headed over to El Cafe for lunch with Bernie initially, but they didn't have Maggi Mee Tom Yam, nor Chicken, nor garlic bread (makes it practically nothing filling to eat. *grumbles*) so had to settle for a measely Mee Goreng. To make matters worse, they are way behind time coz' too many orders. So had to cancel it and head down to the canteen to it. Always running out of stock. Argh.
And the day goes on...
Evaluation for bowling. Vote for new committee. It feels weird, empty somehow. Its like I've stepped up not long ago (November?) and here I am, stepping down again. Pretty fast. And I felt as tho' I haven't contributed anything at all.
Bowling at Silver. I think they did something to the lanes, looks nicer now. I kinda just realised the correct way to release the ball as Jimmy has been trying to drill into my head for quite a long time...it just happens after the competition. Haha, how ironic. But I guess that I only learn my lesson after defeat. *wry smile* Rather sad, but its the learning cycle.
Its almost the first time I have so much passion about something. And it has to be bowling. Of all things. The most expensive ever. Come to think of it, everything that I have a passion for is expensive. Piano, bowling. Previously ice-skating. Sheesh.
Current Mood :
neutral. more to happy side.
Homework piling up!!!! *yells*
It urks me to hear that XH is starting to study for the June Common Tests when I'm still struggling to finish up my tutorials. *sigh*
A rather boring day, spent it chiong-ing homework in the library.
Current Mood :
stunned into reality.
It urks me to hear that XH is starting to study for the June Common Tests when I'm still struggling to finish up my tutorials. *sigh*
A rather boring day, spent it chiong-ing homework in the library.
Current Mood :
stunned into reality.