Coach sent me to die. I really died.
Bowled really really badly today, only got a 126 average. Yesterday's 150 average put me in 35th position out of 108 bowlers, which I consider pretty good. But today's bowling was absolutely absolutely terrible. *sad* Somehow I keep thinking Michael is right all along, he did the best thing to switch my doubles partner from SQ to Bern. After all, I played so badly today. Maybe I suck after all.
I suck suck suck suck. TJC girls team was actually in 5th position overall. But because of me, I probably pulled the team down alot. *sigh* All because of me and my tensed up body. Threw so many gutter balls today. Nobody could help me. Michael gave up on me long ago. Thank goodness Jimmy stayed there. Sigh, but I kinda let him down....as I did to team 1, as I did to TJC.
It sucks to think that after this tournament I wouldn't be bowling competitively anymore. Maybe I was dreaming all these while that I could try getting into the Masters. How stupid of me, really really stupid of me. I could really kick myself for that. Added pressure = failure.
Maybe I should take up something new instead of bowling after this tournament. Maybe, something like knitting. *rolls eyes* It will definitely make my mum happier so that she won't have to waste money buying pullovers for me. Haaaaahaaaaaa.
Alright. Left arm hanging loose again. Not gonna care. Screw it.
Current Mood :
depressed.
Bowled really really badly today, only got a 126 average. Yesterday's 150 average put me in 35th position out of 108 bowlers, which I consider pretty good. But today's bowling was absolutely absolutely terrible. *sad* Somehow I keep thinking Michael is right all along, he did the best thing to switch my doubles partner from SQ to Bern. After all, I played so badly today. Maybe I suck after all.
I suck suck suck suck. TJC girls team was actually in 5th position overall. But because of me, I probably pulled the team down alot. *sigh* All because of me and my tensed up body. Threw so many gutter balls today. Nobody could help me. Michael gave up on me long ago. Thank goodness Jimmy stayed there. Sigh, but I kinda let him down....as I did to team 1, as I did to TJC.
It sucks to think that after this tournament I wouldn't be bowling competitively anymore. Maybe I was dreaming all these while that I could try getting into the Masters. How stupid of me, really really stupid of me. I could really kick myself for that. Added pressure = failure.
Maybe I should take up something new instead of bowling after this tournament. Maybe, something like knitting. *rolls eyes* It will definitely make my mum happier so that she won't have to waste money buying pullovers for me. Haaaaahaaaaaa.
Alright. Left arm hanging loose again. Not gonna care. Screw it.
Current Mood :
depressed.